Never Again
By:
Kitgurl Fabito (PVA Member)
She’s walking away
from me.
Her back is tense, and
I know she’s angry with me.
I suppose she’s
got a right to be angry.
She’s looking back
at me now with
that look in her eyes.
The look says I’ve
disappointed her again.
I know I’m coward
for not even trying.
She’s been waiting
a month,
and I can’t even
try.
She’s getting in
her car,
Heading back to that
empty place she calls home.
Soon I’ll have
to go back to my own empty life,
and wait for the next
time we
can see each other again.
It’s not so different
from what we’ve
done for the last two
months.
Except, I have this awful
feeling that something’s going to happen.
This feeling is so over
powering,
making it hard to breathe.
Every second take her
further and further away
from me.
I want to go after her.
I want to beg her to
stay
and never leave my side.
Why couldn’t I
just tell her
what she wanted to hear?
Why couldn’t I
just tell her I love her?
Instead, I say nothing.
I do nothing
I just stand and watch
her disappear,
not having the courage
to call her back.
A tear runs down my cheek.
Somehow, I know,
deep in my soul,
I will never
See my Hon again.-20s